It was a cold November morning...dry..dark clouds...cold humid breeze outside..the serenity was perfect...one of those days living in the outskirts of town wasn't such a bad idea;
No early morning noise/rush from anywhere...I had to cuddle up myself back into bed...there was no way I was getting out of this bed now!
Everything was perfect as it is, my business was picking up faster than I expected...in fact I had a couple of deliveries lined up for the day. My family?...well my family is FAMILY...lol...I am used to their wahala.
My account?!...not so bad for a start up biz;...this was one of those times you really feel proud of how far you have come as a young entreprenuer.
But wait!!!....something was not right...something was missing...an emptiness...a void suddenly crept in...a gaping hole...yearning for closure so bad....
What was that!?...I was good with all my clients...friends and acquitances....well most...lol..but as a people pleaser I was good with all. So what was that feeling?...and what was it about?!
I yawned...stretched...as I shoved my hands in between my laps...there it was!...I felt it!...the warmth and moist that follows...that tailored wetness...ugh!...it was one of those times again...it was happening too often lately...but was that really it!?
I understand some people get more sexually active in their mid twenties; but am sure this isn't what that feeling was about...
Then like a flash...it dawned on me...I am alone!... I have been for 2-3 years... I wasn't lonely...so why feel so alone suddenly?!!
Right there and then....i knew I couldn't fight the feeling anymore...I needed to drop the act...the *am just fine by myself*... hmmm...I knew I needed someone to call mine even for a minute...
Reluctantly I stepped out of the bed to go get ready for the long day ahead...as I dropped my robe and stepped into d warm shower..then it rang!...like that 4am wakeup bell in the boarding school...the dreaded question!..
Why do you need someone!??
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